June 2013
17 posts
Is it possible to be depressed over nothing? I had an entire year of suffering through depression (due to my own stupidity), and the main problem is entirely over but the feeling comes back every once in a while, especially lately. I have awesome friends, I have a great new job, the future is looking bright, but lately that feeling has been coming back. It also seems that whenever that feeling returns I begin to subconsciously search for something to be upset about. Like lately just… being left out. Knowing that people have a problem with me for bullshit reasons or some friends decided to uninclude me because I had changed and they didn’t like it. And I kept trying to stay in touch or show occasional support to prove that I didn’t hold any hard feelings, but it still never mattered. Either way, I think I’m unintentionally searching for things to justify the depression now that it’s returning. I just don’t really know how to battle it. I get over it, I’m perfectly happy being single and with the friends I have, I just have unresolved issues that will forever remain unresolved and it doesn’t sit well.
How to push it back again… How to fight something that has no stable grounding in my life…
